run

home isn't home

and i don't belong here.

so just take me away

i'll hold onto you

and we'll run to the ends of the world

and never look back

=\

wtf chloe. wtf

seriously, of all people i never expected you to do this.

aren't you the one against gossip and all that?

isn't whatever happens in the club stays in the club?

thanks for telling everyone.

and please get your facts right next time.

you have no idea what was happening

and yeah i'm back in jb now

this sucks.

i wanna be in either s'pore or perth this very moment

had an insanely BOOMZ weekend, but SHINGZ

it had to end this way

death

exams are over at last

but i'm not the least bit excited

had my fair share of fun already but now

really

forget about it

was planning to hit the clubs this friday at first but gonna cancel it now

just not in the mood to really do anything now

first, peppin died

then joel tried to commit suicide

and all that happened whilst i was out having fun

i'm terrified

God just be with him

let him get out of that psych ward fast and just come home

i'm glad i ended up doing commerce instead of OT now

health science does seem to be too stressful

might not have been able to cope with it at all

brain's still at a blank

really

i have no idea what's next

what happened to everything

i'll be a good boy

i'll stop playing dota so much

i'll start studying hard

i'll stop swearing

i'll stop being so self-centered

what happened to all that?

for awhile, it did happen.

the change did occur.

but yet, right now

its all gone.

does the company matter?

to be the light of the world,

not to let them influence me instead

maybe its going the other way now

map hack

honestly we'll still win without it

but yet,

the temptation is just there

to be able to have full vision

to have the advantage of knowing when and where to go

to level of play just increases within that blink of an eye

what happened to integrity

to resort to this

and not feeling guilty

yeah sure its just a game

and its against strangers

and it doesnt change the results

but it aint fair

some might say but everyone else is doing it

very true. but i cant accept it

a cheap win is still a win

true.

to go all out, to do everything needed to win.

that's my motto.

does that include cheating.

if its just for fun

i guess its alright.

no hacking when it comes to matches.

gotta stick to that no matter what.

and when the curtain falls

and when the seats start to empty

he takes off the mask and looks at the mirror

who are you he asks?

if you are me,

then why is it that i cant recognise you

simple,

even you have been deceived by your own facade

prelude

some people been asking me why magic unicorn

told them i had no idea.

but now,

i'm starting to see the whole picture.

its a prelude to the start of everything.

magic unicorn,

simply represents the need for a miracle in my life

and an escape from reality.

and it just acts even more as a forecasting shadow of what's about to come.

the urgent and intense need for either a miracle or escape.

what's becoming of me i have no idea.

it's going down

and down i go from here

hop on, its the ride of our lives

woke up hoping that anushka was just trying to mess with me when he called

saw that torres already scored and a sense of relief came in.

told myself, that dude's just messing with me as always.

but soon after when i checked the score,

3-1.

fuck.

come on, after last week's performance against MU, what's this.

supporting liverpool has been an extremely emotional season for me so far.

its just like getting onto a roller coaster ride

a season full of ups and downs

rather, more of a season full of downs with the occasional ups which brings back that small glimpse of hope

but then again

isn't life exactly the same

full of crap

full of nonsense.

nothing ever goes the way you want it to

but yet, once in awhile,

for just that short while

everything will just go the way you want it to

enticing you to further go on

just to fall harder and deeper at the end of it

loser

sudden extreme strong urge to blog.

maybe its jealousy

maybe its just me wanting to be that fucking mean son of a bitch

but end of the day

does it matter?

just happened to see an ex-ex-ex-ex-ex-ex-ex-ex classmate's facebook profile

must say.

what a loser.

but upon further analysis, that's how i was when i was 13/14?

shit i was a loser.

trying to act all cool and shit

when you're actually nothing.

oh wow i'm so sure you're damn into english rock songs

dude you cant even type english properly

and really ZOMG I CANT BELIEVE IT

YOU'RE ADDICTED TO GUITAR AND DOTA

and enjoy playing basketball with friends huh

wow so coolioxzzxzxz

eliminating alpha male

shit this is just pure nonsense.

i am nonsense.

cynical too.

i'm just messed up and i have no idea why

but somehow i'm liking this

its a whole new facade which i enjoy putting on

i put it on so easily that i forget its on

stay away, i bark.

or rather, i bite since barking seems to be what people like to hear, or somehow read nowadays

if this nonsensical post just caught your attention, you've just proved me right.